How do I convince myself to avoid my father as he abuses me emotionally?

I have a compulsion to see him and yet he abuses me emotionally. I am an adult so have no obligation to see the man ever again but I cannot stop. How do I get the hell away? How do I move (I live not far from him)? I want to cut him largely from my life but can't seem to get myself to.
Update: I have to pretend I am happy when I am with him like when he sees me today as he belittles me if I am not happy. I am anxious if I am around him and he bullies me like my teachers did when I was a kid if I show anxiety. I am dreading today as I have to see the loser.
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